Anfang / Ende

2019 ! As traditionally done, reminiscing over my achievements, failures, ups and downs, as well as the best laughters I have ever had is a necessary yearly tradition. Usually done in the secrecy of my own mind (sometimes diaries), this year am going for a blog post since I have spent the last days of 2018 building my website and blog, a.k.a my new rambling sanctuary. As I was trying to memorize my first catchy German sentence from DARK in 2018; Der Anfang ist das Ende und das Ende ist der Anfang - the beginning is the end and the end is the beginning, I thought I would open this glorious post with it.

While I was working on the photo collage, I had planned to add more photos than just that, trying hard to compromise between resizing and fitting everything so it can still be visible. Then I paused and asked myself: what am I trying to achieve by doing this? I simply cannot scale down all of the highlights, best moments (especially the documented ones) in one single mini 1200X800 collage! Both practically and meaningfully ! To make it short because am wary of how extended my non-sense talk can get, am grateful for everyone I have met this year, mostly the ones that I kept looking forward seeing, talking to, exchanging with. People represent a major part of the substance that keeps me alive and well, however, other parts were equally involved this year! Scientific career wise, I could have achieved better and greater outcomes but I am still proud of how I have caved in, worked long nights, week-ends to make this *warning-technical scientific terms coming ahead* novel promising radiotracer for cancer diagnosis and therapy, bearing in mind that am the laziest ass around. I am still not there yet but I have learnt to be patient, to never give up when everything fails, falls apart, or simply nothing works because of momentarily unseen /unexplainable reasons. Art wise, I have played my first gig in Vienna as a DJ, shot some nice bed-time stories in deep forests, made my friends get drunk and play a soccer match in my birthday (this definitely fits in the Art category, it was a masterpiece), moved to my own place, felt independant and flipping ready to take over the world but still scared as hell from my basement's storage space. So I wish you all more of these unforgettable moments, the ones that still make you smile when you remember them in your desperate anxious moments, and to mostly stay well, healthy, prosper and full of life!

Best,

Nedra xx

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